Pushing Forward into my Purpose

Admittedly, I spend too much time on the Internet and social media. I read a lot of blogs, I post some memes, and I watch videos. Influential and godly people share and post words that speak to my soul. Friends post funny updates and share adorable photos of their kids.

I find this deep black hole and incredible time-suck accomplishes one thing: keeping me from my purpose. God put it on my heart a couple years ago that I was to use my testimony to share Him and glorify Him for all He has delivered me from and for His amazing grace. While I’ve written here and there and created some art, I’m not truly living out my purpose.

Attempting to draw inspiration from other artists, writers, and speakers left me depressed and very UN-inspired. Watching other writers post about their newest book, all the while knowing my book remained unwritten, filled me with shame. Why do I even bother? Using the excuse of “where do I even start?” became more acceptable and an easy go-to. But in my heart-of-hearts, I know the path before me and I’ve just been too scared to start.

I’ve written and re-written the first Google doc page several times. The same message keeps running through my mind: WHERE DO I EVEN START? Then today, I saw something that altered my train of thought:

God didn’t remove the Red Sea. He opened it. Just because God hasn’t removed your problem doesn’t mean He won’t provide a way through it. (author unknown)

I struggle to begin because my story is ongoing. I am STILL experiencing challenges. I am STILL battling through issues I thought would be distant memories by now.

WHOA.

God provided a way through and today I am using it as my first step.

We were studying Pastor Travis Hearn’s 30-Day Journey with God (volume 2) during our Wednesday night women’s bible study and I was asked to speak on the last two devotions, “Safe Zone” and “Going Through”. Reading through the devotions ahead of time, I knew there was a reason I was asked to speak on these specifically.

They are about running to the Lord as He is our safe zone, our place of refuge and our fortress (Psalm 61:3). Not only that, but He is always there with us (Isaiah 43:2).

I have prayed for deliverance from financial burdens, prayed for addiction to be eradicated from my family, prayed for discernment and wisdom, prayed for God’s favor. I have praised Him for His guidance, for His provision, for His protection, for His forgiveness, grace and mercy.

But what was I giving Him in return? Volunteering at church and serving on a local mission team. Serving as a leader for our Wednesday night women’s bible study. Those are all part of what I SHOULD be doing. We are all called to serve.

I know I am saved and completing a “Christian Checklist” isn’t going to get me MORE saved. I’m not going to receive a super special place in heaven if I read the whole Bible every year or stand on a street corner with a megaphone and a JESUS SAVES sign. But why haven’t I felt fulfilled?

I AM NOT SERVING MY PURPOSE FOR GOD’S KINGDOM.

In preparing for the talk I shared, God showed me over and over that challenges will never vanish ~ I will face them for the rest of my life. They will take different forms and they will ebb and flow; however, I cannot stay stuck in one place waiting for things to get better.

“Dear friends, don’t be surprised at the fiery trials you are going through, as if something strange were happening to you.” 1 Peter 4:12 (NLT)

“So be truly glad. There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you must endure many trials for a little while. These trials will show that your faith is genuine. It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold – though your faith is far more precious than mere gold. So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world.” 1 Peter 1:6-7 (NLT)

Finding joy in trials is NOT easy; however, the author of Ecclesiastes reminds us:

“There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven: ….” Ecclesiastes 3:1 (NIV)

When facing a season of despair and weeping, remember there is a time of joy and laughing. I cannot allow my trials today derail me from the purpose meant to carry me through my tomorrows. And neither can you.

I recommit to writing. I recommit to sharing what the Lord puts on my heart to share. I recommit to my purpose.

The Lord replies, “Write down the message I am giving you.
    Write it clearly on the tablets you use.
Then a messenger can read it
    and run to announce it.”
Habakkuk 2:2 (NIRV)

LINKS:

A 30-Day Journey with God by Travis Hearn (Vol 1): Click HERE

A 30-Day Journey with God by Travis Hearn (Vol 2): Coming Soon!

8 thoughts on “Pushing Forward into my Purpose

  1. Thank you, Lora. Every single word and verse you wrote on this post spoke to me. I can so relate!! I’ve struggled over the years as to why isn’t anything happening, materializing with my giftings. And then I’ve come to realize, rather recently, that I had to go through certain experiences first, pass certain tests, and I’ve had to meet and connect with specific people (including you!), for me to be able to begin this…THIS!! I don’t know yet what “this” is for me. I just know everything—every thing—is part of the master plan! I am glad to have you with me as an inspiration as part of this journey!

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    1. Thank you for your kind words! I believe God provides opportunities, that require action on our part, in order to move us forward into our purpose and blessings. I am happy to be connected with you as well & look forward to mutual inspiration in the future!

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  2. Oh how we forget what God does and is doing daily in our lives. Thank you, Lora. This has reminded me to continue to push forward, listen to what He has to say every day. “His mercies are new every morning.”(Lamentations 3:22-23)
    God has done amazing things in our lives, if only we would crawl out of our own minds and praise, honor, be grateful and be joyful because of what He has done. Again, thank you Lora, for reminding me who I am and who He is. I love you so much. May God bless you.

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    1. Yes, His mercies are always new ~ ready for us to grasp and cling onto. One thing that helps me is to remember what He has ALREADY done & He can do it again! Even though one door closes and I’m waiting for another to open, I’ll praise Him in the hallway! Keep pushing, keep leaning into Him, keep listening. He’s talking, guiding and loving! I love you so much and may God continue to bless you as well! ♥️

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  3. I wouldn’t be able to come up with accurate enough words to describe how much this post speaks of and to my situation.
    I am a writer. I am a christian and I feel far from where I am supposed to be. It feels like a mountain is presented to me and I’m supposed to trust God and go ahead and climb it. Everywhere I turn, I see, read or hear “Go to God” “Trust in Him” and similar words that are supposed to encourage me, but don’t. Knowing what I am supposed to do is not what will help. At the end of the day, it boils down to me doing something, and doing it over and over. I honestly feel alone, but I know He is with me. I must have shut Him off.

    I apologize for the rant, but this is the first time I really feel understood, although I am sure I have been understood before.

    Thank you for this article, it has lit a little bit of motivation and determination within me. Now, what steps would you advise me to take to live out my calling? Better yet, can you share with me some examples? It would mean the world…

    Thanks

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    1. Thank you for such kind words. I am thankful my writing touched you and I pray it continues to speak to you. Being a creative can, at times, feel torturous. Thoughts brew and feelings simmer and oftentimes have nowhere to go.
      I’m still walking through the steps of living out my purpose but I will share what I do.
      1. Pray. A lot. It is said so often that it sounds cliche. But it is imperative. I have full-on conversations with God asking Him to open doors only He can open. Make plain my next step. Speak to me and show me in ways I would know it was Him. He can and will do it.
      2. Write often. It’s weird to say that because sometimes I don’t feel like writing or think I have anything to say. But I’ll write whatever is on my mind. It may come out jumbled or may not make much sense but it helps to get out what’s inside. Many times I circle back to those ideas or feelings and incorporate them into a new piece.
      At a Bible study last night a friend shared something I hadn’t heard before. She said “We should on ourselves a lot.” And then asked if we thought that was God saying “You should.” Well, I don’t believe God says “You should” or “You should have”. Those words carry shame and guilt. I believe WE “should” ourselves because we already KNOW what to do; we are stubborn and think our way is better, faster, will produce results to our liking. God is just waiting on our obedience.
      So I have been taking steps to significantly reduce my time online. When I’m online I “should” myself because I know I’m supposed to be writing. Recognizing what we are doing while we “should” ourselves and choosing to write instead will ease feelings of guilt, shame, frustration and make us obedient to His direction. And it’s another step into your purpose.
      Thank you again and I pray God speaks to you and shows you plainly your next step! ♥️

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      1. Amen. Thank you for the love. You took the time to share some more with me and it’s appreciated.
        I agree with you. I know the feeling the word “should” brings too well.
        I have taken time off social media as well. I think what has become hard (it wasn’t always like this) is to write when I don’t feel like it. But I am encouraged to go against my feelings. I will pray as well.

        Thank you. I pray God blesses you the more as you walk in your purpose.

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